However, to say that I don't have anything else to say would be a lie. I could go on a long rant about why the KH/FF fandom has turned so ugly and unattractive to me (and there are lot of reasons, I swur), but, I guess what I want to say first is the good stuff. Thank you to all those who have roleplayed with me at one point or another, and to those who I've had lots of laughs with. You know who you are, and I just want to say that you brought me so much happiness that it was always such a pleasure to be here. But, I've learned that the so-called 'indie lyfe' is not for me. I have learned that you constantly have to watch your back, and that people can turn on you, or completely forget you within a couple of weeks or even days. I've had this happen to me too many times and -- while I won't mention any names -- I have just felt very betrayed. People are so bent on being popular, loved, or having their character whored around, and it's just disgusting. Please stop. This is not a competition, nor will it ever be. You're degrading yourself and the character. So stop it. Don't make a self-conscious whore out of yourself or the muse you play.
In all, I hope that people will come to know what kind of people others really are; I know this will take time, or maybe it'll never happen at all. But I have just met some people who say one thing, when they really mean another. People pretend to be nice to you, but they really don't give a damn about you. Despite these people, I have also been blessed to have met some incredibly supportive people. I have had the pleasure to at least keep in touch with these people more than one way. Some have even brought me to tears at how kind, cherishing, and supportive they've been to me. And it is those people who I will remember and will cherish forever.
In all though, it has been a pleasure being Riku. I'm so happy to have achieved over 660 followers, and I honestly cannot believe how many people have supported and believed in my skills. You guys have certainly helped me grow stronger and become more confident as a writer. And the compliments -- whether Anon or not -- have certainly made me giggle, and sometimes even cry. Thank you, really. It has been such a great journey; and sadly, all journeys have to come to an end sooner or later.
I will be in other fandoms and elsewhere in the KH/FF fandom. I will still be roleplaying Riku on another account during this time, but in a much more secluded, controlled, and mature setting. I have not given this new account's name out to anyone, nor do I intend to unless we are friends on Skype and you ask for my URL. I don't want to be 'Naito' right now because it pains me so much to be on my account and I just lose all my inspiration.
I'm sure I will be replaced, or that people will just come down to this last paragraph and won't give a damn. And that's honestly okay. Because it just proves the fact that I've been trying to tell: the indie lyfe is one where you can be appreciated one day, and ignored and discarded the next. I like to have a family, one that doesn't scatter or 'pretend' to be one and pride themselves on such false claims. Many things have irked me, and, in order to prevent myself from being the 'ranting kid', I've just decided to remove myself from an environment that's so bent on popularity and shipping. Goodbye for now, guys! Despite all these bad things, I have had the pleasure to know some amazing writers and friends. I will probably come back when KH 3 comes out, but that might be for a while. It has been fun being Riku, and to have met you all. Keep plugging on. Y'all are snazzy mo'fos. <3
Naito-san.
If you still wanna keep in touch via Skype, and/or know who else I will be playing, you can always message me.
